Night streaming black and cold
encircling my heart,
releasing panicked nervous winged creatures
hampered in escape.
It burns,
it pricks my anxiety and sends me below,
dark and foreboding,
restless endangered sleep.
Wandering through efforts at planned positivity I falter on honesty.
Progression stalemate.
Stale, mate.
Pushing forward leads me sideways,
contemplating reasons,
analysing methods,
hopefully healed,
negotiating the persistant pump of adrenalin terror to the muscle that I cannot fathom.
Sick awake.
No escape.


2011 – back to the decks…

So I was lucky enough to start up some DJing in Nottingham town last night as part of Bring Your Bear at The Bodega. Amazing fun when I figured out the machinery and got to grips with the crazy levels situation… (having had my laptop stolen last November from our house, all I could use was my ipod, Rafe’s ipod and a scatter of CDs.) But it went incredibly well. Loads of happy people with waves of tune recognition glancing across their faces. There were appreciative high fives, a dude who explained to me that The Killers were named when Brandon Flowers spotted said name painted across a drumkit in the video for  New Order’s Crystal, hilariously a random proposal of marriage, general good vibes from well wishers for Mike’s last night in town before L.A. re-steals him for a while and 5 and a half hours of music… not bad for a first proper venture back to the decks in over two years! So here’s to more of that!

Thought, just like back in the old days with Dave circa 2006/7 in Thomas Read, Dublin, I’d stick up the playlist. You might have liked something or just need some inspiration for listening material in this time of inspirational music drought!

The Bodega (Social) – Monday – 10th January 2011

Arcade Fire – The Suburbs

Stars – Ageless Beauty

Beach House – Norway

The Shins – Caring Is Creepy

Wavves – King of the Beach

The Depreciation Guild – Sky Ghosts

Abe Vigoda – Crush

Deep Purple – Black Night

Dark Room Notes – Love Like Nicotine

Dead Confederate – The Rat

Entrance Band – Lookout!

Joy Formidible – Austere

Sonic Youth – Wish Fulfillment

Flaming Lips – She Don’t Use Jelly

Smashing Pumpkins – Jellybelly

Swimming – Crash the Current

Giant Drag – Pretty Little Neighbour

Interpol – PDA

Afghan Whigs – Debonair

Filter – Captain Bligh

Heatmeiser – Cruel Reminder

Cold War Kids – Hang me Out to Dry

Witch – Eye

Graveyard – Thin Line

Biffy Clyro – Saturday Superhouse

Boxer Rebellion – Evacuate

Megaphonic Thrift – Talks Like a Weed King

And So I Watch You From Afar – S is for Salamander

Howling Bells – Low Happening

Metric – Monster Hospital

Muse – Plug In Baby

Land of Talk – Speak to me Bones

Nada Surf – Popular

Lemonheads – Break Me

New Order – Crystal

Mansun – Stripper Vicar

Nine Black Alps – Get Your Guns

Mew – Am I Wry, No

Phoenix – Too Young

Little Comets – Isles

Pavement – Cut Your Hair

Yeah Yeah Yeah’s – Gold Lion

Radiohead – Electioneering

Dinosaur Jnr – Insane

My Vitriol – Cemented Shoes

Reuben – Freddy Kreuger

Weezer – El Scorcho

Snow Patrol – Spitting Games

TV on the Radio – Wolf Like Me

Silversun Pickups – Royal We

Temper Trap – Fader

Raconteurs – Steady as she Goes

Sugar – Hoover Dam

We Are Scientists – Nobody Moves, Nobody Gets Hurt

Charlotte Hatherley – Behave

Soulwax – Too Many DJ’s

Tapes n Tapes – Insistor

CSS – Alala

Jetpane Landing – Brave Gravity

Averkiou – The South Wall

Best Coast – Crazy For You

Tripwires – Cinnamon

Melissa Auf Der Maur – Real A Lie

Tomahawk – Rape this Day

Catherine Wheel – Sparks Are Gonna Fly

White Lies – To Loose My Life

dEUS – Via

Weezer – The World Has Turned And Left Me Here

Dinosaur Pile-Up  – My Rock and Roll

Alice In Chains – Would?

Nirvana – Drain You

The National – Mistaken For Strangers

At the Drive In – One Armed Scissor

Faith No More – Digging the Grave

Autolux – Audience No.1

Elliott Smith – L.A.

Grizzly Bear – Two Weeks

Pearl Jam – Rearviewmirror


Fadin’ fader

New year, new thoughts.

This blog is now a year old and even though I didn’t blog very frequently. Happy enough so far.

Tune of the Crimbo period…


Choon choosing

Been sussing this Club AC30-esque DJ set for the Butterfly Explosion gig this past few hours and have come up with a very self-indulgent Cauls-esque 30 mins of mostly melodic, but mainly ethereal and dissonant heart-wrenching tunage… mmm, contradictory!

Only pity is, I came up with an hour and a half’s worth really, not 30 bloody short minutes! So I have this extended dream DJ set and a shortened one prepared… I’m ready for all!!

I’ll throw up a list tomorrow if anyone finds it in anyway enlightening tonight… or just come up and ask!

LOUDNESS awaits.


The Black Triangle


Post-FKOS amazing rock legends… Yeah, poor aul FKOS I’ll miss ye…

Tomorrow, Thursday in Academy 2, Fiver in… go to it!


The Black Triangle


Butterfly Explosion AC30 DJ Cauls… ahem…

Would ya look at my name!!! MY NAME!!! Oh the pride…


Cheers for the DJing opportunity Gazz… t’will be an ace night!

Expect some of this and this…

gazz b ex


ASIWYFA return!

So tis AC30 gig time again and the wonderous ASIWYFA are back with a vengence this Sunday, this time on Whelans Main Stage. With Enemies and C!ties.

You can follow the build-up here on facebook and here on last.fm. Free downloads on last.fm event page too. Bonus.